What now! R.I.P Amy!
I feel like a selfish, fucked up kid with no one that I can turn to or find anyone that can help!
Well my best friend Amy died a week ago and I have been so down and depressed ever since!
I Carn't turn to anyone for that wise advice and reassuring smile that Amy used to give me!
I know my mom and dad is there, but its not the same, I carnt express myself to them as I would to Amy!
I feel so idiotic because I am the one that is feeling sorry for myself but really it's Amys parents and family that I should be feeling more sorry for!
I do in every single way possible envy them for how they have coped with this devastating news! Could you imagine how it must feel to lose your only child!
This happening has just really fucked me up! I have lost my best friend and the worst part is I know that I could have done something to prevent her death! I wish I could turn back time and take the bullet myself..... Why did it happen to Amy? She was perfect in everyway!
But now I am haunted by the devastating flashbacks of when she was laid there in my arms..Dyeing!
I will tell you what happened so you can maybe understand what I mean!
well Amy, Chloe, Matty Adam and myself were just hanging out like normal but they wanted to go and see Brix's, he kinda lives in the ghetto if you know what I mean! Well we went around to see him and as we came to the park, we some how got caught up in a gang war and I mean the gangs around there are not the ones to mess with and so they were shooting at each other and at that time we were all hid around the side of a car! Chloe, Matty and Adam were on the floor with there heads in their hands, but then I realized that Amy wasn't there. Then I seen her stood at the park gate! I started shouting of her but she couldn't hear me so I ran over the to the nearest car to get closer to her! But then I was to late, one of the gang members shot her in the back. The gangs then scattered because they realize what they had done. I ran over to her, she was still alive at this time and I held her in my arms, she was bleeding a lot, I tried to apply pressure to the gun shot wound but nothing was helping! The ambulance was on it was by this time and the neighbor's came out to try and her but she was hanging on for her life! I said that I loved her, she was the bestest friend anyone could ever have! And never will I ever forget her, she kinda mumbled "love you" and then she just slipped away! I know if i got there a bit more faster I could have stopped the bullet from hitting her, she might of been still alive! I would have took that bullet for her any day!
Well I hope you understand now and know that my life isn't is as perfect as some people say it is!
I am fucked up and really confused!
I appreciate all your comments!
Luv Danielle,
Peace <33
Well my best friend Amy died a week ago and I have been so down and depressed ever since!
I Carn't turn to anyone for that wise advice and reassuring smile that Amy used to give me!
I know my mom and dad is there, but its not the same, I carnt express myself to them as I would to Amy!
I feel so idiotic because I am the one that is feeling sorry for myself but really it's Amys parents and family that I should be feeling more sorry for!
I do in every single way possible envy them for how they have coped with this devastating news! Could you imagine how it must feel to lose your only child!
This happening has just really fucked me up! I have lost my best friend and the worst part is I know that I could have done something to prevent her death! I wish I could turn back time and take the bullet myself..... Why did it happen to Amy? She was perfect in everyway!
But now I am haunted by the devastating flashbacks of when she was laid there in my arms..Dyeing!
I will tell you what happened so you can maybe understand what I mean!
well Amy, Chloe, Matty Adam and myself were just hanging out like normal but they wanted to go and see Brix's, he kinda lives in the ghetto if you know what I mean! Well we went around to see him and as we came to the park, we some how got caught up in a gang war and I mean the gangs around there are not the ones to mess with and so they were shooting at each other and at that time we were all hid around the side of a car! Chloe, Matty and Adam were on the floor with there heads in their hands, but then I realized that Amy wasn't there. Then I seen her stood at the park gate! I started shouting of her but she couldn't hear me so I ran over the to the nearest car to get closer to her! But then I was to late, one of the gang members shot her in the back. The gangs then scattered because they realize what they had done. I ran over to her, she was still alive at this time and I held her in my arms, she was bleeding a lot, I tried to apply pressure to the gun shot wound but nothing was helping! The ambulance was on it was by this time and the neighbor's came out to try and her but she was hanging on for her life! I said that I loved her, she was the bestest friend anyone could ever have! And never will I ever forget her, she kinda mumbled "love you" and then she just slipped away! I know if i got there a bit more faster I could have stopped the bullet from hitting her, she might of been still alive! I would have took that bullet for her any day!
Well I hope you understand now and know that my life isn't is as perfect as some people say it is!
I am fucked up and really confused!
I appreciate all your comments!
Luv Danielle,
Peace <33
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